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I've been missing in action for almost a year, there seems to be too many things that is happening is my sorry state of life. Near misses and hits on my work, the roller coaster financial turmoil i'm in, and the bloody !@$@%()$*@# plunging stock market is killing my work, the business and also my finances. ARGH!!!!!
I flipped my car again back in May. Yeah, the same car. This time i whacked down a signboard as well and being charged RM10,000 for replacing the "SLOW DOWN" yellow signboard on the highway. hehe... :P
But the car suffered a different fate. After endless heartache battling with the car to regain it's charm by repairing all the wear and tear parts plus countlessly caressing her back to her glory days of being a nice comfy ride, and gently prepping her for the MACE Car Audio Competition, decked her with new amps that cost me 2 months of my salary, and new equipment that cost me another month's salary, she finally said "To hell with you, i rather die!" and the insurance company decides to write her off...without considering all the heartaches and tears and also my hard earned money caring for her needs and taking care of her health, she decides to leave me cold here, without a decent car to run around. This world is cruel. Damnit.
On July, i've decided to let go all attachments on relationships especially the one that i'm after for one and a half year and decided to be single. Something happened in this particular month that made me realized that i'm so, so sick and tired of chasing after something that will never happen in near future. Arent relationships supposed to be happy? how come i felt like i regret every single thing i do to her? Well...it pisses you off when everytime you make an effort to be accepted as a boyfriend, the respond you get is so dissappointed that you feel is this worth it. Everytime it's the same typical lame answer: "i'm still not ready" for the past 12 months. Enough is enough. Finally i realized we're not made for each other as i can't imagine being in a relationship with her. Thank god for kicking my senses out of my ass.
On Oct, i was hospitalized for suffering hypertension at a tender age of 30!!! WTF!!!
Yes, yours truly has been admitted to hospital 6 days after my birthday. Blood pressure when i was admitted? 213/190. Surprised? hahaha....how do i found out? Simple. One fine morning going to the office as i alighted from my car, blood started dripping out from my nose. non-stop. So, i'm on medication hopefully not for life and living my life like a phobiatic uncle. Less rice, less meat, less fat, take more rest and more sleeping time, less alcohol, less nicotine...wait a minute...all except the other two...wakakakkakaka :P
For the first time in 18 months, i failed to achieve sales my target this month (November).
But one thing's for sure is going nicely and smoothly and absolutely out of the blue without expected : my love life.
I've met J late last month...31st October to be exact.
She's a part timer for my company's nationwide roadshow and she's a final year student at UM. We met at my branch's roadshow planned for a client who's not even my account. At first i felt there's no need for me to be there but i'll just make an appearance for the other 3 promoters, for my "sister" Zoe, Fern and Ivy. Since we're buddies. And to thank Zoe for largely playing the part of waking me up back in July.
How it started? well to be honest both does not have a single clue on what's happening to us. We just...clicked. No official handshakes, those lame "hi, how are you, nice to meet you" stuffs. We joked, teased during the roadshow and a day after it ended, she got my phone number from Zoe as i refused to give her (thinking that she's one of those who will treat someone nice for the sake of her work) and we started messaging each other. One thing led to another (VIA SMS!!!!) and a few short meetings, without a single date and personal outings, and 3 weeks after we met...sparks fly.
I never believed in love at first sight, and neither did she. But things happened so fast i have no control of what's going on. as for her? the only thing she could say is " Davy Wong!!! i thought we agreed to slow down!!! what is going on??? " while hugging my hand and resting her head on my shoulder.
haha...if i know the answer i would be striking lotteries like crazy and ruled the world...LOL!!!
But as we moved on riding this "bullet train", we enjoyed each other's company. chemistry? yupz. feel? yupz. excited and comfortable? yupz. what more can she asked? and what more can i ask for?
She's a newbie in a relationship, i'm a battle scarred veteran with numerous experience with my 4 exes. But, one thing that i'm sure, she's wayyyyyy different than the other 4 exes i was with. And she's much better than them. All of them. This is new to me...and i liked the feeling she radiates out from her.
She touched my heart in many different ways. She's natural in her ways by being herself. But what i liked the most is the fact that she took the effort to communicate and react in this relationship even though she has her doubts whether or not is this what a girlfriend should do. But because she's innocent and so pure with her intentions, i became myself when i'm with her and i'm very comfortable being myself and her boyfriend and just follow the flow. All in the span of 3 weeks!
Friends say we're going too fast. We did have a mutual understanding that we need to slow down. I mean, the funny thing is when we agreed to slow down we were dumbfounded when we did not even know our full name! but god might be playing tricks with us or maybe he pressed the wrong button...instead of pressing "slow motion" maybe he's high on cordon bleu or royal salute (P/S: God, no pun intended but i guess if you drink, these are your favourites instead of those cheapo black label right? :P) and pressed fast forward. As soon as we agreed to slow down, things picked up from there! After so many relationships, i take everything with a pinch of salt. wait...not a pinch, a bagful of salt! For the other gals, Whatever you say will not have any effect on me...prove it to me and i will believe you. But for her, she innocently attacked my armor and exposed my true self. And indeed, she saw through me that outside that mean, cocky, tough, bad boy attitude, i'm just a normal person waiting for the perfect moment to make an appearance. And she made it happen.
That was on Monday. We have a break of 2 weeks as she's back in her hometown now. Maybe this is the arrangement made by god himself after a mistake on the play button..hehehe...
As we're taking a breather now (and missing her terribly!) from all the fast forward motion, I am thinking things. Things i would do once she's back. Things i would do in future for her. Things i would make happen in future. I'm sure she's the one and I will do whatever it takes to make her happy, fulfilled, loved. Maybe it's because of my age, or maybe it's the feeling that says "dont let go of her"...i'm making my plans around her. My career, my life, my finances.
J...come back soon...i missed you.
P/S : As of 9.45pm yesterday, i received a Purchase Order, enough to achieve my sales target...so November is not that bad after all :)
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