Trust is all-or-nothing.

There's no such thing as "don't trust 100%", and there's definitely no such thing as "if you don't trust 100%, then if he betrays you, you won't hurt so much".

Either you trust your lover, or you don't.

Got this quote from the online forum Malaysianbabes.net Actually this site's not bad. Got tips for makeup la, relationship problems la, nightspots la...tons of information for the new generation of gals on the go.

Okay...back to topic.

I personally agree with this quote. It's either you trust or you dont trust at all. There's no such thing as a half trust...part trust or a bit of trust.

If you trust a person about 50%, what's the other half? suspicion? Sigh...if that's the case it means you still do not really trust him as you still have suspicion on him or her.

I think the real definition should be "i trust the person in a relationship issues, but i do not trust him in his working issues."

Now that's more like it. A better way to define things.

It's much clearer and non-ambiguous as "I trust him but i don't really trust him in a way...."

Sigh...

Oh...i missed out another point. If you have a green eyed monster lurking in your heart...forget about telling others that you do trust the person in subject. No point saying i trust you when you have been suspicious on that person all the while. Agree?

You tell me.

P/S : This is not about me and my dear. It's just something i need to tell all of you. No matter what others may say, but this is my point of view. :)

By the way... thanks for trusting me dear, and i trust you too. Heee.... :P

Tagged Part 2...Hotel California (Live Unplugged) - The Eagles

Well...down time's over...let's bounce it up a notch by completing this tag...hehe :)

RULES:
1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Tag 10 friends.
5. Everyone tagged as to do the same thing.
6. Have Fun!

My own rules : Due to the fact i have 15 GB of Songs...and because some of them are in Chinese...i will narrow down to about 1GB of English songs in my thumb drive that i listen to in my car currently. Should be fun ;)


1.IF SOMEONE SAYS 'ARE YOU OKAY' YOU SAY?
- Love Me (Accapella) - Janice (hehehe guys have 2 core problems. It's either cash or gal...LOL!!!) -

2.HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
- Lips of An Angel (Unplugged) - Hinder (Okaaaaaayyyy...the lyrics...LOL...whatever...:P) -

3.WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
- Just When I Thought I Was Over You - Air Supply (Er...it's true. Just when i thought i'm contended being single...Jeneft popped into my life :P) -

4.HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
- Zombie - The Cranberries (ROFLMAO!!!!! HOW TRUE!!!!! Muahahahah!!!!) -

5.WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
- So Sick - Ne-Yo (Hehe...Or is it that I'm so sick of listening to love songs and i should have lived the dream and create my own "love song"? hmmm...) -

6.WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO?
- When I'm Gone - Simple Plan (I guess that's who i am...not waiting for opportunity, instead going after it...) -

7.WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
- London Bridge - Fergie (MUahaHahAHahahAHaHAAHAH..... :P :P :P) -

8.WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
- Breathless - Shane Ward (wow...i did not know my parents love me so much... i thought they're breathless as in wasting their breathes thinking about me...haha...) -

9.WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
- Love is What We Need - Celine Dion (hee...i admit! Guilty as Charged!!!) -

10.WHAT IS 2 + 2?
- Janice (衛蘭)-今夜你不會來 (國語版) <- Translation: Tonight Coming Back or Not? (HAHAHAHHAHA :P) -

11.WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
- Janice (衛蘭) - Superman (LOL!!!!) -

12.WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
- Teardrops on My Guitar - Taylor Swift (USED TO BE...NOT ANYMORE NOW :>) -


13.WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
- Pussy Cat Dolls ft. Snoop Dogg - Buttons (Pushing all the buttons baby...i hope i'm not the telephone operator... heheheheheheh :P) -

14.WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
- Janice (矫孽) - In Love Again (и硂妓稲) (Cant believe that i'm in love...in love again...hahahaha :>) -

15.WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
- Just As I Am - Air Supply (You said you want me...just as i am...:>) -

16.WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
- 4 Minutes - Madonna (Album Version Feat. Justin Timberlake And Timbaland) (hey hey...yo baby...gimme 4 minutes of your groove...throw the rose into my grave and move on with life!!!) -

17.WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
- With You - Chris Brown (eh?....) -

18.WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
- Every Woman In The World - Air Supply (Can i NOT COMMENT on this? hahahhahahaha) -

19.WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
- Me & You (Remix) - Cassie Feat. Ray J (er...can i ALSO NOT COMMENT on this? :P) -

20.WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?
- I'm yours - Jason Mraz (yes dear...i'm yours...:>) -

21.WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
- I Kissed a Girl - Katy Perry - (Duh....) -

22.WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
- Hotel California (Live Unplugged) - The Eagles (hey hey..hahaha...:P) -

Nah...wont be tagging anyone...but it managed to help me kill some time in the office...heheheh

Jolted awake by a very disturbing dream this morning. While most of the time I'll just shrug it off and continue making my journey in la-la land...this morning however is a little bit different. I cant get myself back to sleep even though I'm dead tired from yesterday night's excursion. It felt so real...so real that i actually felt depressed and my eyes got so irritated it wet itself...

This cant be happening to me. Not at this time when everything is picture perfect. To be distracted by something so disturbing now...it dropped me into a very deep hole. Not now...not when I'm coming to grips with the reality that will happen in a few months.

Where distance will be the biggest hurdle among us.

Where time is the most precious item we have.

Even wealth wont change the fact that she's going away after graduation.

And leave me all alone here...

To be disturbed by that dream really hits me today. I cant concentrate. I cant do this. I need to run away....

My reality bites me back at my ass...and I'm depressed.

Tried watching all her videos just now...usually i will smile and giggle at her antics...but today...it got me deeper and deeper into the dark side...

This is so not me...

I hope things will get better once i start to rationalize...i hope...but not now...not today...i hope it will be better tomorrow...i really wished...i prayed...stop hurting me....please...no more nightmares!!!!!!!!!!!

The music of Rick Price-Heaven Knows that was played on the radio this morning on my way to work made things worse...

She's always on my mind
From the time I wake up,
Till I close my eyes.
She's everywhere I go
She's all I know.

And though she's so far away,
It just keeps getting stronger everyday
And even now she's gone
I'm still holding on

So tell me, where do I start
'Coz it's breakin' my heart
Don't wanna let her go

Chorus:

Maybe my love will come back someday
Only heaven knows
And maybe our hearts will find a way
But only heaven knows
And all I can do is hope & pray
'Coz heaven knows.

My friends keep telling me
That if you really love her,
You've gotta set her free
And if she returns in time
I'll know she's mine

But tell me, where do I start
'Coz it's breakin' my heart
Don't wanna let her go

(Repeat Chorus except last line)

Bridge:

'Coz heaven knows
Why I live in despair
'Coz wide awake or dreamin',
I know she's never there
And all the time I act so brave,
I'm shakin' inside
Why does it hurt me so?



Someone, anyone...the person up there...SAVE ME PLEASE!

A man's dilemma...and you say we don't understand women =P

The three famous words a typical gal would usually say to you when you ask her to decide on something. HOW TRUE. =P hahaha lol... *not referring to you...dear...*

(1) (Whatever)

Men: What to have for dinner?
Women: Whatever…
Men: Why not we have steamboat?
Women: Don't want la, eat steamboat later got pimples in my face.
Men: Alright, why not have Si Chuan cuisine.
Women: Yesterday ate Si Chuan, today eat again?
Men: Hmm….. I suggest we have seafood.
Women: Seafood no good la, later I got diarrhea.
Men: Then what you suggest?
Women: Whatever…

Men : (Banging his testicles left, right and center...*breathes deeply and ask...*

(2) (Anything)

Men: So what should we do now?
Women: Anything.
Men: How about watching movie? Long time we didn't watch movie.
Women: Watching movie no good la, waste time only.
Men: How about we play bowling, do some exercises?
Women: Exercise in such hot day? You not feel tire meh?
Men: Then find a café and have drink.
Women: Drink coffee will affect my sleep.
Men: Then what you suggest?
Women: Anything.

*By this time the man almost want to whack his head to the nearest pillar or vomit blood...while clutching his heart from having a heart attack he asks...*

(3) (You decide)

Men: Then we just go home lo…
Women: You decide
Men: Let take bus, I will accompany you.
Women: Bus is dirty and crowded. Don't want la.
Men: Ok , we will take Taxi.
Women: Not worth it la…. For such a short distance
Men: Alright, then we walk lo. Take a slow walk.
Women: What to walk with empty stomach woh?
Men: Then what you suggest?
Women: You decide
Men: Let's have dinner first.
Women: Whatever….
Men: Eat What?
Women: Anything

now...who's fault is it in the first place? sometimes i can get heart attack by just talking to them. hee hee...:P

hahahahhahahahahahahhaha..... LOL!!!

Tomorrow is a big day!

Tomorrow's going to be a very busy day for me. I got something up my sleeves for her tomorrow...Hope she like the stuffs i made for her then.

I know if i could not make it tomorrow, there are other times or other chances, but given our situation in the next few months, if i don't fulfill this promise, i wonder when will the the day i can give my promise. I hope she understand my predicament...

She said it might be too troublesome for me...but for you baby...it's all worth it. :)

Too many things running in my head now. Let's just wish that everyone enjoys themselves tomorrow then...

Happy Valentine's Day to all of you. And to her...

Jeneft just told me about her friend's feedback about my new blog layout...

well here's my reaction:

*Since when it looked like a textbook? mine's inverted colors okay? black background...grey fonts...

*Okay i do admit that it's quite long...but that's the way i am...talkative...typative..hahahaha :P

*Yes yes...i'll try to upload some pictures together with my ramblings for the day.

*How about now...? any improvements?

*I welcome any feedback...from all of you. Something you don't like over here, please tell me in my shoutout box.

Thanks. hahahah... :P

Original Post : Nov 27 2008

Eh, it's still alive! Muahahahah

Nov 27, '08 5:51 AM for everyone

Whassup all?

I've been missing in action for almost a year, there seems to be too many things that is happening is my sorry state of life. Near misses and hits on my work, the roller coaster financial turmoil i'm in, and the bloody !@$@%()$*@# plunging stock market is killing my work, the business and also my finances. ARGH!!!!!

I flipped my car again back in May. Yeah, the same car. This time i whacked down a signboard as well and being charged RM10,000 for replacing the "SLOW DOWN" yellow signboard on the highway. hehe... :P

But the car suffered a different fate. After endless heartache battling with the car to regain it's charm by repairing all the wear and tear parts plus countlessly caressing her back to her glory days of being a nice comfy ride, and gently prepping her for the MACE Car Audio Competition, decked her with new amps that cost me 2 months of my salary, and new equipment that cost me another month's salary, she finally said "To hell with you, i rather die!" and the insurance company decides to write her off...without considering all the heartaches and tears and also my hard earned money caring for her needs and taking care of her health, she decides to leave me cold here, without a decent car to run around. This world is cruel. Damnit.

On July, i've decided to let go all attachments on relationships especially the one that i'm after for one and a half year and decided to be single. Something happened in this particular month that made me realized that i'm so, so sick and tired of chasing after something that will never happen in near future. Arent relationships supposed to be happy? how come i felt like i regret every single thing i do to her? Well...it pisses you off when everytime you make an effort to be accepted as a boyfriend, the respond you get is so dissappointed that you feel is this worth it. Everytime it's the same typical lame answer: "i'm still not ready" for the past 12 months. Enough is enough. Finally i realized we're not made for each other as i can't imagine being in a relationship with her. Thank god for kicking my senses out of my ass.

On Oct, i was hospitalized for suffering hypertension at a tender age of 30!!! WTF!!!

Yes, yours truly has been admitted to hospital 6 days after my birthday. Blood pressure when i was admitted? 213/190. Surprised? hahaha....how do i found out? Simple. One fine morning going to the office as i alighted from my car, blood started dripping out from my nose. non-stop. So, i'm on medication hopefully not for life and living my life like a phobiatic uncle. Less rice, less meat, less fat, take more rest and more sleeping time, less alcohol, less nicotine...wait a minute...all except the other two...wakakakkakaka :P

For the first time in 18 months, i failed to achieve sales my target this month (November).

But one thing's for sure is going nicely and smoothly and absolutely out of the blue without expected : my love life.

I've met J late last month...31st October to be exact.

She's a part timer for my company's nationwide roadshow and she's a final year student at UM. We met at my branch's roadshow planned for a client who's not even my account. At first i felt there's no need for me to be there but i'll just make an appearance for the other 3 promoters, for my "sister" Zoe, Fern and Ivy. Since we're buddies. And to thank Zoe for largely playing the part of waking me up back in July.

How it started? well to be honest both does not have a single clue on what's happening to us. We just...clicked. No official handshakes, those lame "hi, how are you, nice to meet you" stuffs. We joked, teased during the roadshow and a day after it ended, she got my phone number from Zoe as i refused to give her (thinking that she's one of those who will treat someone nice for the sake of her work) and we started messaging each other. One thing led to another (VIA SMS!!!!) and a few short meetings, without a single date and personal outings, and 3 weeks after we met...sparks fly.

I never believed in love at first sight, and neither did she. But things happened so fast i have no control of what's going on. as for her? the only thing she could say is " Davy Wong!!! i thought we agreed to slow down!!! what is going on??? " while hugging my hand and resting her head on my shoulder.

haha...if i know the answer i would be striking lotteries like crazy and ruled the world...LOL!!!

But as we moved on riding this "bullet train", we enjoyed each other's company. chemistry? yupz. feel? yupz. excited and comfortable? yupz. what more can she asked? and what more can i ask for?

She's a newbie in a relationship, i'm a battle scarred veteran with numerous experience with my 4 exes. But, one thing that i'm sure, she's wayyyyyy different than the other 4 exes i was with. And she's much better than them. All of them. This is new to me...and i liked the feeling she radiates out from her.

She touched my heart in many different ways. She's natural in her ways by being herself. But what i liked the most is the fact that she took the effort to communicate and react in this relationship even though she has her doubts whether or not is this what a girlfriend should do. But because she's innocent and so pure with her intentions, i became myself when i'm with her and i'm very comfortable being myself and her boyfriend and just follow the flow. All in the span of 3 weeks!

Friends say we're going too fast. We did have a mutual understanding that we need to slow down. I mean, the funny thing is when we agreed to slow down we were dumbfounded when we did not even know our full name! but god might be playing tricks with us or maybe he pressed the wrong button...instead of pressing "slow motion" maybe he's high on cordon bleu or royal salute (P/S: God, no pun intended but i guess if you drink, these are your favourites instead of those cheapo black label right? :P) and pressed fast forward. As soon as we agreed to slow down, things picked up from there! After so many relationships, i take everything with a pinch of salt. wait...not a pinch, a bagful of salt! For the other gals, Whatever you say will not have any effect on me...prove it to me and i will believe you. But for her, she innocently attacked my armor and exposed my true self. And indeed, she saw through me that outside that mean, cocky, tough, bad boy attitude, i'm just a normal person waiting for the perfect moment to make an appearance. And she made it happen.

That was on Monday. We have a break of 2 weeks as she's back in her hometown now. Maybe this is the arrangement made by god himself after a mistake on the play button..hehehe...

As we're taking a breather now (and missing her terribly!) from all the fast forward motion, I am thinking things. Things i would do once she's back. Things i would do in future for her. Things i would make happen in future. I'm sure she's the one and I will do whatever it takes to make her happy, fulfilled, loved. Maybe it's because of my age, or maybe it's the feeling that says "dont let go of her"...i'm making my plans around her. My career, my life, my finances.

J...come back soon...i missed you.

P/S : As of 9.45pm yesterday, i received a Purchase Order, enough to achieve my sales target...so November is not that bad after all :)

Original Post : Jan 22, 2009

CNY Blues...

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Heya peeps.

As we reached the end of the week coming to CNY, it seems like there is so much unfinished business for me to complete by this weekend so that I have no worries about work anymore for the CNY week. Yours truly has reached his Business Plan (target), one week ahead of closing date...A new year is a new beginning. I dont want to have last year's backlog haunting me during my holidays.

Unfortunately, this issue will result you neglecting your quality time with your loved ones, be it family or friends or your significant other. Well as some will say, "What to do? you have no choice", or “it’s okay, work is more important”, there are some who will just sulk at the fact that their other half would rather work than spend some time with their loved ones.

However, as we all know, and as everyone will debate about this issue till the cow comes home, money is everything...well close to everything. We’re busy working our ass off just to earn some moolah, and in return, for all the things that we do. Simple as that.

Let's take a very small example. We need the moolah for CNY right? New clothes, New home appliances, the red packets, the decor, the hairstyle, makeup, accessories, jewellery, service the car, maintain the car, upgrade the in-car entertaintment (ICE), give some for parents...clear all your previous debts from Credit card or friends, the list goes on. Hell, we need moolah to travel also right back to hometown...toll, petrol, service the car before the long journey home or to vacation...

And it also applies to those in love. We need money to come over to pick you up, pay the toll, parking ticket, lunch/dinner/drinks/supper

...and also the occasional stay in hotel for those who stay quite far away from their gf/bf.

Adds up to almost the ultimate conclusion that money is everything right?

Well...it is. But, money cant buy love. money cant buy happiness, money cant buy health, money cant buy your feelings. You can sell your soul to the company you work for by immersing yourself with their workload, fight for the company, die for the company…SiGh…in the end it’s still not your dad’s or your grandfather’s company…you’re still working for a monthly salary also what. Even if you’re promoted to manager level also so what? You still have to spend more time to the company, so that they can justify the salary they give you. Remember…the more they pay you, the more they expect from you. Life is this simple…face the fact that being a manager does not guarantee that you will have better quality of life. Money, yes. Time spent for the family…hmmm…I leave you all to decide.

There are some who purposely work their ass off for other reason as well. This week I have been working harder than any given day for one single purpose…to stop missing HER more than I can handle now.

Reason? We have never been apart for more than a week since we first met each other. Most out of most is 6 days I think…and now since I will be busy with my sales closing till Friday, and she’s leaving back to her hometown early Saturday, we might miss a chance to meet each other for this week. Tonight I got to run outstation for PR work (CNY gifts to my clients) and tomorrow…Sigh…seems like the inevitable will happen. I’m going to miss her for another 7 days.

The fact that when reality strikes last week that we might be apart for 12 days, I was crushed. I fumbled myself on the last day of our date last Sunday as I don’t know what to do, how to react…it’s so hard when you’re facing reality and many people would capture the opportunity to enjoy the fullest while it lasted. For someone like me who looks forward…it’s difficult. It’s tough…it’s torturing. Sometimes I just do not know what to SMS her, what to reply, what to talk to on the phone, as I do not want her to worry that I’m missing her…very much. Well at least i did a good job of letting her not to worry bout me...i guess.

This whole week I have been so into my work, once I saw my bed I just dump myself into it and doze off till the next morning. Unfortunately in the wee hours of this morning I just cant get myself to sleep. Woke up at 3am just now and my mind went blank for the next 8 hours until I decided “what the heck…just type something to drain off some excess adrenaline… and hence…this blog appeared now.

Reading back what did I wrote…Sheesh…what the fuck is this? Hahah…

But anyways…before everyone goes back to their hometown,
Before the highways are jammed,
Before the phone network gets congested,
Before we log off for the CNY weekends and wont be checking out each other’s site for a week,
Before I die of loneliness…

I sincerely wish everyone a very Happy and Red Chinese New Year. May the year of the Ox brings good health, happiness, prosperity and wealth to you and also to your family members, oh and of course…to your significant other. Hehe…

Cheers ya’ll …be back next Thursday…Sigh…gotta work next week.

Original Post : Jan 14 2009.

Progress Report...

Jan 14, '09 11:36 PM for everyone

It's been 1 month and 3 weeks. 7 weeks of pure bliss...not that we have no down moments but then it's easily resolved and forgiven, and forgotten. To wholeheartedly love someone is to forgive and forget their flaws. Though it seems that i seem to have more flaws than her...i think.

In these 7 weeks i made 3 trips to Ipoh. Made a trip each to Cameron and Genting. In these 7 weeks i have made countless trips to various parts of Klang Valley with her. Best part is i clocked 3500Kms on my odometer in 4 weeks. NAF NAF has leaked engine oil on crankshaft oil seal and is hanging on to her dear life. Looks like the 1.8 liter lump needs some TLC soon or it might blow up on me soon...hahaha...:P Been contemplating on a new 4G93 Turbocharged halfcut but i held myself well. Been using 4G63 stroked 2.2 liter Turbo for 3 years...i dont want to go back to those "glory" but painful years of seeing NAF NAF spending half of her life in the workshop.

Well that's not the point. This is for my progress report with Jeneft. Yes, my new Baby gal..my dear... :)

In these 7 weeks we learned quite alot about each other. She slowly revealed her true self and i enjoyed more and more spending time with her. Stuffs that even i guess her friends dont know about. Her behaviour, her actions, her funny faces. As for her, she learned more about me, and sometimes shocked when i reveal about my "dark" past. But she takes it on her stride...getting more grateful even when i told her as she said she's lucky she met me now instead as she could not imagine what will happen if she met me earlier.

But the fact remains that if she did not work for my company for the caravan roadshow, our paths would not cross. We come from very different backgrounds and with our age gap, there wont be any chance that we will meet somewhere else. Well, last sunday we thanked the person who introduced her to the job that landed her the ultimate prize, me. heheh :P

To be honest i have to confess that my 4 exes would kill me and rip me apart if they see how much i cared, love and pamper Jeneft. She asked me before why i pamper her so much compared to the exes, i cant answer. Maybe that's the way i am. Maybe i am myself when i'm with her. Maybe she deserved it as she is the one who saw through me. Maybe i really in love with her. :)

I have broke 2 of my relationship principles that i held strongly all this while when i'm with her.

First, never to have a relationship with someone who is a first timer in love. It takes alot of patience, understanding and also consideration as a first timer will always test the water she's wading through, and also a first timer would expect the heaven and the impossible as they will always think that a relationship is forever heavenly, blissful and out of this world. Yeah right...the only thing that is out of this world is your temper if you realized that being in a relationship is not up to your expectation. But for her...she just take it as it is. No so called over the roof expectation...and she just enjoyed the company and the time spent together. Best part is that she's not greedy and selfish at first until i mistakenly advised her to. Alamak...now she's getting the hang of it and getting much more greedier...hehehe but i love it. At least she has demands now and that's the challenge i'll fullfill for her. :)

Secondly, never to pour out all your love, affection and your feelings in the relationship until the other party does it first. it's an insurance in the beginning of the relationship so as if it does not work, it wont be too hard to let go, forget and move on with life. Unfortunately on the 3rd week of our relationship i have poured out more than all my 30 years of life have ever did. I have pampered her more than anyone that has been with me. I have to admit i do feel dissapointed when she did not return back the feelings. Reason? she's a first timer! (see? first and second principles are deeply related!) But as time goes by, and by just let the feelings and affections flow, slowly she opened up to me and i can feel her affections to me. Slowly but surely...she's reassuring me that everything's fine and the feeling's mutual. As i said...she's more demanding now. And i liked it. :)

Well....if you're reading this now, i just like to say that everything i do comes naturally out of my instinct and also my feelings. Yes, i do need to sacrifice for you but i have my valid reasons for it and it's for my own good. You would say that i should'nt, but i think that you deserve every attention given by me for you. Thanks for being so understanding. thanks for the mutual respect and trust we have for each other by giving space for each other's activities...and thank you for loving me.

Thanks for giving me a chance to take care of you, pamper you, protect you. Thank you for being a quick learner and started to return the affections. Thank you for being in my life. I'm grateful that our paths crossed, and thank you for introducing me to your friends and family. Thanks for sticking by me during tough times and during the times at your home. Thanks for giving me another direction in life.

Argh...too many words to say, too little brain juice left to describe. i guess i have to update this blog often now or else the overflow of information would fry my tiny little brains...hehe...

Thank you Jeneft. You complete me.

Tagged? I don't know you all are ready for this...

25 stuffs you will never know about Xlurpee@Miton@Davy if i do not post it here...

1) Friends in my Zerotohundred, SIOC, TOCM, and other motorsports fraternity know me by nickname : Miton. (put Mitsubishi and Proton together...hence...you know...)

2) Friends in the "underground" scene or in Sunway know me by "David Saga" (cos i used to drive a flying saga...literally)

3) Friends in IRC and ICQ back in the 90's still adress me as Xlurpee...ya...the 7-11 slurpee but i changed the spelling to XLuRP3e to show i am in Clan-[X]...

4) During motorsports season I'm the only one in my company who fills up the leave card when applying leave with the reason :
Petronas Malaysian Formula 1 Grand Prix : Official Duty
SuperGT 2008 Round 4 : Official Duty
Malaysian Super Series Round 3 : Official Duty

hahahahahha...most of my leave are usually taken to work for the motorsports weekend.

5) I got the privilige to make all my leaves unrecorded as i got a letter from the Ministry of Youth and Sports declaring my status as an official to all events in Sepang International Circuit. But...nevermind. No point also.

6) I'm one of the few lucky persons in Malaysia who got the chance to become the Safety Car Driver, Race Control Officer, Race Diary Officer, Minute by Minute Officer.

7) I was actually born in University Hospital, PJ and i grew up in Setapak, KL before my parents decide to shift back to their hometown in Seremban. So now my i/c number has a 14 in the middle instead of 05 (for Negeri Sembilan)

8) I believe i have 9 lives...but i also believe i used 8 of them already. LOL... I've seriously cheated death 8 times since i was born. (3 road accidents, 2 freak road accidents, fell off a flight stairs twice and survived, almost fell off a cliff during mountain climbing)

9) I can emcee and become a deejay for a small fee or when i feel like volunteering for free. :)

10) I cant stay in office. I have to run around. If you assign me to a desk job, i rather hang myself.

11) Ooohh...I love running roadshows, events and also promotions. But not the person organizing it. hehe...been there, done that. Enough is enough.

12) I can sing in Mandarin although I'm a banana boy... :P

13) I have only lost 3 times in many of my "underground drag racing" friendly games. I got witnesses who can vouch for that.

14) I was a school basketball and volleyball team back in secondary school days.

15) I seriously think Drifting is wayyyyy overrated. It's an art i agree, but it should not be categorized as a motorsport. It should be in the same field as X-games.

16) I also seriously think Malaysia with their Malaysian way will always fail in anything they do. Motorsports and other Sports like FOOTBALL, Track and Field...Sigh...

17) But as much as i hate them, i would not want to live anywhere else besides Malaysia...weird, huh?

18) I cant eat spicy food. Try spiking my food with cili padi, and you'll find out. Jeneft tried once...'accidently' but my instinct beg to differ...i think she seriously wanted to torture me...hehehe :P

19) Oh...food...ya...I'm a food lover...will go anywhere and any time of the day in search for the tastiest, yummiest and the most finger licking foods around! hehe...

20) I'm not a hip-hop/R n B fan. Inclined more towards progressive, electronic, house, trance and techno. The few artist i can bear with is Usher, Timbaland, Snoop Dogg, Sean Paul...to name a few...and yes i am a clubber/raver.

21) I love myself. I used to be happy being single. Mostly because of my life and my work and the people i hang out with.

22) But I also in love with Jeneft...so i can also be very very happy being attached :)

23) I can do almost everything and anything to please my girlfriend. Ask my exes and they'll also vouch for that. :)

24) I love myself for the fact that i can cook various dishes, be it western, chinese or fusion.

25) I have many friends also who will vouch for me and the statements i made above :)


NAH...THERE YOU GO!!! 25 of the random things about myself.

but i wont be tagging anyone to do this simply because so many others are tagging one another...so if we apply "six degrees of separation" theory...even if i do not tag you...sooner or later you'll be tagged by someone else. heheh...

Laterz... :P

February Ritual : Part 2

Er...this my 2008 Blog about the same day. Now...guys...no laughing okay? I know the situation I'm in now is way different than last year...Especially to dear2...don't laugh when you see me tomorrow okay? But i expect you'll pull my ears... :P hehehe...

God...it's the time of the month again!

Feb 10, '08 5:03 PM for everyone

For the past few years, right after CNY, there will be the one dreaded day when every male human being in love or in a relationship will scramble, scatter, and stressed themselves on this very day to please their partner. The day when if it all fails, or if it screwed up, there will be a 99.995% chance that your partner will be pissed off, angry, went on their early PMS on you, ignores you and the worse of them...NOT TODAY, I'M NOT IN THE MOOD. hee hee....yeah...it's the 14th of February day...Valentine's.

Gosh...back when i was with my ex, this day is the most important day to somehow show her how you feel about her, to express your love for her, and the day where she is the queen and you are the servant who is trying your best to grant almost everything she wishes (of course la...if she say she want you to buy her an island...that's impossible la...if for me i will buy her a "thousand island"....if you dont know what the hell i am saying, go to the nearest supermarket and look for Thousand Island Salad dressing... MUaAahahahAHAHAHAHAHaHa...) the day when i have to figure out the right gift to buy for her, the right card to give her, the right restaurants, the nice place to sightseeing...you know...the works. All the usual thoughts at work and at family and friends will be thrown out of the window and instead concentrate on one single thing you have to do for that day only, to please your significant other. =)

As for me now, single as ever (or should i say as usual), i find this very disturbing to us singles. Everywhere up to the day of Valentine's, there are flowers, couples, special promotions, you know...the works. When you're single, all your sensory strength will stray towards the couples, the ones in love, the "wish i was with someone today" mushy feeling until the next morning when you wake up and thanked god that it's over. if you decide to go out on this thursday (yeah, it falls on 14th Feb) alone, your sensory system will go overtime. It might overload and burn your brain and you left yourself into a meltdown. There was a statistic where i read that more people are admitted into the mental ward in hospitals all over the world on the 14th of Feb. NO LA I MADE THIS UP ONLY...AHHAHAHAHHA....

Everywhere you go, you will, i repeat, you will feel sooooo out of place as soon as you looked around. Everywhere you go you will be surrounded by couples la, holding hands here and there, hugging la, kissing la...the whole PDAs (Public Displays of Affection) running around. Out of 10 couples you see out there, 7 of them will have a bunch of flowers at their arms, or maybe a teddy bear or two....aww....somehow or rather, they are sort of welded together for that day...the hands of either person might be welded at the arms, or the waist...the ass...and the least affected, the hands la...ok la that one...hehehhe...

Those nice nice restaurants will be fully booked, the cinemas too, the car parks, and you will see those usual romantic spots in kl will be packed with couples.

Where can you go? hide at home? Damn...wont that be boring? Cannot...it can ruin your diet...it can ruin your mind...must come out one! hee hee =P

Here's a few tips. Get a group of your friends to hang out on that day. Make sure they do not have plans too or you will be FFKed...hahahha...go for a drink, dinner, hang out or even dance out at a club. Just try not to be alone or you might end up at home watching While Harry Met Sally on your telly in your room, chomping away chocolates or french fries, with the tissue box half empty wiping off your tears and mucus...EEEEEEeeeeeyeeerr!!! hahahahahahah

Or you can drown yourself at work. Work overtime. maybe till around 12am when everyone's mostly at some hotel at some room somewhere banging their partners. LOL

If you love your family, you can even bring all of them out for a nice dinner outside...go shopping for groceries at Tesco ke Carrefour ke...not bad also wat.

or...my plan for this Thursday? Get a group of single mates around, meet up in a club somewhere in KL, start happy hour at around 4.30 or 5pm and get myself drunk by 9pm. by that time i might fall asleep at the chair, or maybe my evil twin brother who appears usually when i'm drunk will borrow my mind and soul and start flirting with some gal sitting at our next table hopefully or worst out of worst at the gal selling cigarettes or liquor...and by the time you go home you will be too drunk and too busy to think about the couples, the ex, the one who rejected you or the one who kept you at the freezer and left you clueless. Good idea.

I wonder at myself all the time. Why this...Couple's day is so influential to us singles? why we can survive most of the time without a partner only to be beaten by the festive....no no...romantic moods coming up to this dreaded day? Why when we are so happy being single starts to think haywire and think so negatively and hope that someone somehow and someday will steal our hearts away and wished you are one of them, happily celebrating this day together with your loved ones?

Actually, loved ones dosent mean your partner only. It's with anyone you love. Anyone you love. Family also can, with colleagues also can, with your group of friends also can. Just dont bring your best friend along, unless you made it clear to him or her. hehehhehehehehe....

It's too commercialized. It's too hyped up. It's absurd. why go out on a single day when every restaurants will choose this day to create some packages where you cant figure out the exact amount and charges some up the klcc roof for just a simple 5 course dinner? or cinema packages that cost hundreds plus a VIP seating for a bloody movie? arent movies only cost rm 10 a person? or wherever you go it seems it's packed with every couple on the planet? or why everywhere you see the seating's rearranged to couples' seating?

argh....and the list goes on. lucky the mamak stalls never create a lover's package of 2 teh tarik, 2 roti canai and 2 bananas or popadum at the special price of RM9.99. hahahhahaah that will be the day...LOL maybe the mamak fellas will sing a tamil or hindustan tune at an extra rm 2.99...which includes change of clothing, with a group of them dancing and singing and twirling around the pillars of the shops (no trees big enough wat like you see in the movies) ... gosh...i cant stop laughing...hahhaha

One of my exes told me before many years ago when i was still studying, and have not much budget for a great valentine's day outing or a nice gift for her tole me this: "It's not only about the day where you shower me will all your love. If that is the way, i would rather wish that everyday is Valentine's Day and you shower me with your love and care everyday, day and night, no matter what day it is..." =)

To be honest, i'm just venting out my frustration today. Been sick since the first day of CNY, so did not go anywhere much. Been a boring CNY sticking out at my room watching astro most of the time i am awake. One year later i might end up laughing my ass off at this blog. One year later i might have someone...who knows...

NO NO NO NO NO...here it goes again!!!! ARGHHHHH!H!!!!!!!!!

*runs to the nearest wall to bang my head on*

February Ritual

I have been grumbling, rambling and lamenting about V-Day for 2 years now. Seems like every year at this time i have to say something in detest of all these strange but funny disease...yeah...the day when we commemorate St. Valentine for being beaten to death on 14th of Feb. Reason? He's just a messenger for a couple in which one of them is in jail! For god's sake, why should we have a day dedicated to the death of a "despatch boy???" And why it's so important that couples must cherish and honor that very day as if it's Xmas or CNY??? Sigh...nevermind...that i will tell later in my future blog :P hehe...but then...here goes my past 2 year's blog on Valentine's Day.

Believe me...it's totally different...and will be very very different that what i'm going to blog for this 2009 Valentine's. >.< haha...

well here goes : 2007 Valentine's.

I almost killed myself.

Feb 14, '07 11:13 AM for everyone

Now now, we're not talking about suicide, not about taking your own life here... not those you jump i jump kinda thingy. We're talking about not taking care of yourself properly. Stuffs like not supposed to stay up late when you are supposed to go to sleep, get drunk almost everyday and damage your liver, stuffs like that (actually i got one more point but in the end i will kena back myself...hahaha)

I, for one am a stubborn person. I call it attitude. Some call it "Men's Big Decision". Some call it plain stupid. And some, call it "die die wan face"... One of my rules in life is not to bow down to pressure during work. After work, also cannot bow down to the pressures in the stomach when i drink a little too much. hahahahahah!!! so hence this short story.

Was outstation to Southern part of Negeri Sembilan last Thursday... The start of seemingly dull day when a few of my clients are busy, hence not in their office. Whatever, since i'm coming down to do some "small small" things for someone, i took a leisurely drive down from seremban, stopover in Tampin (5 mins drive from A Farmosa Resort) then straight to Melaka town. met up with a buddy of mine in Tesco and we proceed to melaka raya to search for a nyonya restaurant that seems to sell some great pineapple tarts...hmm...

So when i am done with the stuffs, had satay celup dinner in Capitol since the one i usually go near melaka raya is closed. Sigh...so fat so big size (yours truly) also no use can only sapu 12 sticks nia. that wan also forced to do so cos i am not those who like to waste. yeah la they can take back what's left but i dun like to see got leftover. After that proceeded to Melaka raya for a bucket of Carlsberg while catching up with my buddy whom i did not meet for 6 months already (hahaha...6 months is alot man for a great friend like him)

It was about 9.30pm when the Malaccan client who was busy earlier, called. Apparently he just got back and wondering where am i. Told him i was at this nice pub overlooking the shopping complex with a bowling pin on top of it (dun ask me what name of places in melaka...i know where to go but not the name..hahaha) and he duly came over, ordered 3 buckets and proceeded with the session with my buddy. (you see? casual drinkers order 1 bucket by one...asshole drinkers who like to get drunk order 3 at once...aiyo it's the same la it's not that the beer will get cooler...waste space somore...)

So...7 buckets later (yes...he ordered 6~!) my client (let's call him ALEX) gets incoherent and starts to mumble something in some Tibetan language i do not understand and starts to chat up those cigarette selling gals...It's his style anyway while i just continue to move along with the music and "cuci mata"... my buddy...he's still here. Then i remembered. Oh Shit...tomorrow i got another outstation trip to Bahau (Eastern Negeri Sembilan near Pahang) told him that i wanted to go back early, he mumbled something in Tagalog...and said that he is here alone and wife took the car. @^$^)!*~)#%@)$(%3... Again.

It was 2.30. FINALLY the pub/disco close for da day. took him into my car, drove him back home. Wife as usual is waiting in da living room waiting. "he's drunk again?" she asked. i just smiled while dragging Alex's ass to the living room. "You okay? Can go back or not?" she asked again. I just nodded and said that I can manage. "Take care and be careful then" as she closes the gate of her bungalow...

So...at 3.30, it happened. I almost reached my home in Seremban. Yes...finally...i have been tired lately because of the short working month in Feb, need to catch up on my sales and my paperwork, so used up alot of my energy and i was almost flat on battery...need to really take a rest. About 5 kms away from the Senawang Exit, there's a rest area. Then, i saw the container trailer in front of me is like...erratic...sometimes drive straight...then snake left and right...Uh Oh... better step on it and faster overtake it. downshifted gear...floored the throttle...and hence...at somewhere above 150km/h, something happened that made me regret my decision for the rest of my life.


Yes, I crashed. The trailer decides to make an IMAGINARY right hand turn when i was halfway overtaking it. I got no where to go, there are roadworks going on, and it just flew off the road and the rest...i dunno. I passed out. As i regain consciousness, i realised i was UPSIDE DOWN. SHIT! FUCK! I OVERTURNED. i cant see a bloody thing, i smell petrol, and i am in bloody pain! Okay...think. reached to the glove compartment for my torchlight...looked around...okay...let go of the safety belt first (THANK GOD I WEAR SAFETY BELT EVERY TIME I DRIVE) and i fell down. OuCh..Stupid decision. Looked for an exit...the rear window smashed...okay...as i crawl i found my handphone (the stupid brick still works!) i cant move my right leg...have to use my hand to drag the right leg.

As i came out of the car, then only i felt all the body pain. i thought i fractured a rib, right leg and my right collarbone...in the longkang i actually found my pack of smokes and lighter...and took one straightaway. called the helpline at the back of the PLUS Transit Ticket and report that i crashed somewhere between Senawang Exit and Senawang Rest Area.

Weird..no Call man (tow truck fella) around...police not around...not even people stopped by to check on me...dazed, confused, blur, tired, i pass out again.

I woke up the second time as the police called me checking if i'm alright. by that time there are quite a number of people there already...Blur sotong as i am at that time i even have trouble remembering my name! They pulled me to their Police truck and ask me to rest there while they take care of the car for me. then i saw a tow truck pulling my car upright...


Came down just to take a few pictures of the car...as i rummaged around in the cockpit full of pineapple tarts (i bought 12 packs, only 4 remained intact), i noticed my wallet is missing! SHIT. searched high and low for it, even went a few hundred feet away from the crash site just to find out that i crashed a few hundred feet away and overturned twice...


How can i get into this SHIT? i did not have any accidents for the past 5 years. this is the only the second major accident in 10 years ever since i overturned my 6 month old Wira 1.8 at Federal Highway...


To cut the story short, i went back home thanks to the Highway Patrol, the car heads to the Seremban 2 Police station to have its "handsome" picture taken, as i got home my mom was horrified of what happened, my sis almost cried, and my dad, as usual, kept quiet. made a few calls to cancel my Credit card, ATM, and called my boss to inform what happened. then, i crashed to bed. Thousands of calls came in later ( i remember i send sms to a few of my friends and colleagues informing about the accident ) and i just do not have the energy to pick up, let alone the mood to do so. The patrol advised me not to make any police report till i dun smell like a drunk ass (HELLO? I WAS NOT DRUNK!) but my mind was to settle all my stuffs and get my spare car up and running, get it back to street legal and re-register for road use by this week ( remember my previous blog? Nevermind... i got another episode coming up )

Borrowed some cash from my mom, did my replacement I/C and License, made my police report and along the way, answering thousands of calls asking what happened/am i alright/not yet dead/how come like this/like that/why so stupid/when can start work <-- this one is classic la... i injured la boss...aiyo...and went to the workshop that towed my car to take some pics and search and retrieve some of my stuffs that are still there. Told the fella to take care of my audio stuffs in there as currently they are more valuable than the junk now.

Later that evening my pain and bruises got unbearable. Went to the hospital for X-Ray. Thank god, no fractures. Just bruises. no wound, no blood, no impact to the head...and got me thinking. WHAT THE FUCK WAS I THINKING ALL THIS WHILE?

I should have rest when i'm tired,
I should have stop when i think i had enough,
I should not go back that late,
I should not have driven so fast,
I should not be so stubborn and just rest first before you go back!

Too many "i should"...Too many "what if"... why dont we just DO IT and then make the changes?

I COULD HAVE DIED IN THERE! If there is really an afterlife, i could be banging my balls thinking the same thing as above! shit, what about my family? my buddies? people who know me? people i am in love with? GOD... why am i so selfish?

Alex called. Apologising profusely for what happened to me in which i partly blame him, and said to me that no more late night out for him. Yeah Right. Knowing this fella, first few months tada hal one, then after back to normal, he also back to normal...hehe..whatever. At least i got the message through to all my clients. NO MORE LATE NIGHT OUTS FOR ME~! PLEASE LET ME GO HOME BY 1 AM. =P hahaha...

The thing is, i would like all of you to always think before you act. Think of your loved ones. Think of the consequences. Especially while driving. If you think speeding at 200km/h on Federal Highway in the rush hour traffic gives you massive orgasms, Think of what happens when a car decides to block your lane and you have no where to go...

Especially festive seasons. As you drive to meet your loved ones, PLEASE, TAKE CARE and always ALERT on the road. Rest areas are there on highways for a reason. I will make full use of it in the future when i go outstation.

I'm more thankful that i'm still alive without SERIOUS injuries, NO wounds, can still walk, talk, eat, sleep, sms, online...hahaha.. yeah. if you see me on the streets of kl and seremban, you wont notice the pain i'm in because it's all internal. Blue black on my leg, arms, collarbone and my ribs. Just try not to poke me when you see me around. =P


In Which, I can't help it to post his drunk ass face on the web... =P



HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA......

First Blood

Well I'll be damned...I could not see myself having a Blogspot page for years since it's been launched, been shying away as i have my own Multiply and Facebook blogs hence did not find the reason to create my own account here. But...one fine day one of my friends asked me how come she could'nt read my blogs in multiply and facebook. When I teached her, she just complained...aiyah so troublesome one...why dont you join in blogspot? Hmmm.....

Well for you gal...here you go. :P heheh no la...just felt that since i'm pushing 30 (yes...i am an old uncle i admit okay?) and having a blogspot page might make it easier for the world to know who i am (hek eleh...perasannya) and i think it would be a good idea...who knows this page might be as big as kennysia...LOL...

Okay...enough of this lame shit...for the moment i will be posting my old Multiply blogs. Come March 2009 (tentatively) i would be permanently blogging from this site, and shutting down the Multiply page.

So...should'nt I deserve a warm welcome for jumping ship towards Blogspot? Damn...felt like I'm in the midst of Political wars sort of like in Perak now...hahaha...

So anyways, have a nice weekend for you all. And for those celebrating the Lunar New Year, Happy the 15th this coming Monday. Happy Chap Goh Meh!!!


Oh...for those who dont know my monkey face yet...i'm the 2nd fella from the right. ya the fat bugger...LOL :P

Laterz.